I AM NO MORE A CHILD.....

Everything was strange....

everyone was stranger....

but i was strangest. 

So innocent in the face

 but i had a lot to say.

 I had seen a lot more than 

the world expected of me. 

My nerves could no longer 

sustain the ongoing events. 

Back then,i was weak,

i could only watch

 from a distance. 

I could only listen 

behind walls and closed doors.

 It was this today,

that tomorrow and

 something else the next day. 

It was a lifestyle and life cycle

that could be accommodated by none.

 I became used to the fire

 but when the smoke

 started chocking me,

i relented.

I no longer wanted to

 watch from a distance.

 Neither did i want

 to listen behind walls 

and closed doors. 

I was burning with fury,

hatred and horrid ideas 

found their way in my mind. 

My tears ran down my visage

 like a rivulet. 

They were my comfort

watched from miles away 

afraid of the outcome 

of the events at hand. 

Yet all was like 

a crudely played game. 

 My life had suddenly

 become as useless to me

 as a piece of dead wood

 thrown and discarded 

in the middle of the ocean.

 I tried talking but

 my tongue was heavy.

And even when it was light

i didn't see anyone to talk to. 

Nobody could understand:

i was just a child then. 

I am no more a child. 

i don't watch from a distance

 or listen behind walls 

and closed doors.

I cry no more.

 I've found happiness.

 Nothing is strange to me,

nobody is a stranger to me

 and I'm not the strangest person

 I understand my surrounding better.

 I've gotten used to all

that pertains to life.

I'M NO MORE A CHILD.