She is the lead

She wants the lead
She wants to take the lead
Yet she knows not
That she is the lead
She frowns upon the possibility
That she can be the lead
So she bundles herself in sorrow
Drowning herself in pity
Hoping to one day wake up
And find herself in the lead




She wants the lead
She wants to own the crown
Yet she knows not
That she is already crowned
She shys away from her queen title
Preferring a less weighty title
Settling for lesser than her value
Ignoring the power she exhibits
Allowing for her crown to be belittled
Hoping to settle for a cheaper crown

She wants the lead
She wants her name to be heard
Yet she knows not
That she has already built a legacy
She doubts the power in her name
Keeps second guessing herself
Looking for affirmations and confirmations
In the same places she's already conquered
She lacks the faith to believe
She lacks the morale to accept
That her only task is to own her name

She wants to lead
She wants to burry her pasts
Yet she knows not
That no one defines her in that past
She mulls over what was wrong
Never engages on how to stay strong
She wallows in self blame
Forgetting to self appraise
She bites into too much of whys
Letting her pasts trail her present

She wants to lead
She can lead
She was born to lead
She is the lead
She can lead despite the pasts
She can lead beyond the present
She must be her own cheerleader
She must be her own lead critic
She has to find her crown soon
And take her place in the lead.