I am scared...

I am scared

Not because you love me

Not because you have chosen me

Not because you might disappoint me

Not because I love you

Not because I have chosen you

Not because I might disappoint you

I am scared

Because of the way you know me

Because of the way you read my mind

Because you care even when I don’t deserve

Because I may not really know you

Because I cannot really read your mind

Because I may not care in the same measure

I am scared

That after these many years

You talk to me like you know me for long

That after these many years

You still feel we can make what we couldn’t

That after these long years

You still think my beauty is as you first saw it

I am scared

Of not being able to give back as much

Of not having changed even with the gap

Of losing you like I lost myself

Of you not giving me as much

Of your life having changed since

Of never having to see you again

But I am more scared

That I may not be as fragrant as roses

That I may not be the princess in your dreams

That I may not find humour in your talk

That my view of life may not coincide with yours

That I might want to fight for myself

That I might want to protect myself from you

I am even more scared

That I may love you more than you do me

That I may hurt myself in the process

That I may spend my life nursing my wounds

That there is little you can do about this

That there is nothing you can do to help me

That I may have to live with it

I am scared

Of being myself with you

Of losing myself to you

Of committing my heart to you

I do not want to wake up one morning

And not know how I ended up here

Or why I ignored every red flag

I am scared

Because you love me

Because you have chosen me

Because you might disappoint me

Because I love you

Because I have chosen you

Because I might disappoint you